It's been a while since I posted here, but I feel I have something that must be said or rather must be asked. Why is it that so many in this world refuse to simply let others be to live their lives as they see fit and with as much happiness as they can find? I understand that many people feel that what others do is wrong and they don't support those ideas, but how does that effect them? Why is it that so many people have to push their views on the way the world should be on everyone else? What have I or anyone else done to you that has provoked this?
The answer I so often hear to those questions is "It's because God says so!". Well did he really? I was involved in church for most of my childhood and looking back I can't help but feel that the way christians talked about and acted toward the LGBT community effected me greatly. I already never fit in anywhere and being afraid of even less acceptance because 'God hates the gays" kept me closeted to the point that I very nearly ended it all. I do realize that the bible dose say things about men laying with men, but I also know that Jesus had a few things to say as well. If I am not mistaken Jesus said that He is the new covenant and that all the laws that came before him are gone. He taught people to love and be compassionate to one another and to simply treat them as you wish to be treated. When did Jesus ever say to shun those you find distasteful, to spew hate at them at every possible turn? Why do so many that scream to the heavens they are christians, act so little like Christ?
When I began to come out as transgender a year ago I knew that the chances were strong that I would have friends and family leave my life. I did end up losing a bit more than I thought I would and I will not deny that it hurt. The ones that hurt most were the ones that chose to leave because their religion would not allow them to be supportive of me in my, as they see them"sins". This truly amazed me because for as long as I can remember I was always told that we ALL have sinned and that no sin is greater than another. So why is it that some sins lead to being an outcast and having members of your own family no longer wish to speak to you? If someone wants to call me a sinner they are absolutely right. I am a sinner, and I was a sinner long before I ever made the decision to transition from one gender role to another. What then has changed? Do the christians really hate the LGBT community because they feel we live in sin or is it something else. Now I know I am generalizing here and yes I know that not everyone that calls themselves christians hold hate for the LGBT community, but with so many that do I have to ask why all the anger? Where do they find so much hatred for people that are simply trying to live their lives.
I suppose this wouldn't effect me so much if I hadn't had people that told me they would always love me turn and take this new path of hate. They may say that they don't hate me, but if it's not hate then what is it? What is it that has them asked me not to try and correct something that I have know was wrong for so very very long? Are they ashamed at what others will say? Can people really be so insecure that having others mock or look down on a loved on is enough to turn their back on them?
I simply don't understand. :(
For most of my life I considered myself to be a christian, but at this point watching people who claim to be a christian as well spew hate and intolerance wherever they can, I simply can't be a part of it. I don't fully know what I believe and I don't know how long it will take me to come to a conclusion on the matter, but I know that it's something I have to come to in my own time.
This type of religious persecution has to stop. Every day I read stories that have me doing all that I can to hold back the tears. People ridiculed, abused both physically and verbally, tormented, and even killed, all because others think what they are doing goes against their religion. If anything I would think that christians would consider life to be important, but sadly it seems that so many would rather see their children dead than being any part of the LGBT community. Why must this be, will it ever end?
I have rambled on just a bit more than I meant to and I apologize that I am not a better writer, so I guess I will finish with this.
If you feel that I am wrong in who I am that's fine, if you think I am going to hell for what I do that's fine, if you think that every day God looks down on me in anger well that's fine too, if you think that the way you feel about me and my life is going to keep me from living it, think again,
